After Friday and well after my recovery. I could have taken on Tyson. I felt that good, that pumped. Realisation then that nothing could stand between me and my ultimate goal.
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This was a calculated swim done under controlled conditions with one sole purpose behind it.. Confidence confidence confidence..
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This wasn’t a throwaway blast with no thought about my own safety. 23 minutes in sub 6 degrees for me is no laughing matter its a serious business.
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I felt amazing, I felt strong and my mind pushed my body to a point where I needed to be cared for. Thats what we planned for and thats what happened. Job done. The recovery was a dream. Some dark flash backs. A bad B movie being played out through the slit in my dry robe. Thank God for black outs I say.
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I needed to build myself up. To boost my levels. To feel that flow. That feeling. To experience something so traumatic and to come through it. I overcame my demons and conquered.
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For me to take on the Bay this Saturday. I needed it. I had to lay it all on the line or just give up.
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I’m ready to fight now. Ready to stand toe to toe confident that I can give it my best shot with a decent chance of success. Before I was nothing. Now I’ll smash the life out of it like I just smashed the life out of myself.
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Self belief. Winning before I even start.
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PS. Massive massive thank you to the person that took care of me on Friday making me safe and sound in my hour of need. 💜 I couldn’t and wouldn’t have done it without you. #teamhawkes , which without, none of what I want to achieve is possible. Thanks for being there and believing in me.
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Roll on Saturday and Link in Bio for full details of Swim.. MH🤗.
